Weekly goals

So I weighed in today and I am down 1 pounds (woo happy dance) I have to be honest I am a little surprised because towards the end of the week I wasn't counting I was just eating well. This made me think a little bit about the number of points that I get a day. I don't think it is enough to loose, I think it is too low so I reset my activity level from the sedentary (level 1) to the second level of activity. I gained 2 points a day and I will see how that helps me.

On way it will help me is that I have those two extra points to use for breakfast. SO that brings us to goal #1 for the week. dah da dah dahhhh Eat a real breakfast every morning. Smooties, oatmeal, an egg real stuff to fuel me for the day.

Goal #2 Water, keeping the water bottle with me at all times, especially when I am not home.

Goal #3 This one is really just to make me happy...focus on presentation. I want to make my food look pretty using nice fun dishes and taking the time to enjoy my food.

Oh why not goal #4 is to include a fruit with my dinner to help beat that desire to have something sweet when I am done.

I am feeling excited about life lately, big things are happening in my life. I start my teaching internship in the fall, I graduated from college, I am in a wedding in January, and the newest is that we are hopefully going to go on a cruise in February with another couple which is something I have never done!

Here is to a spectacular week for all!!

Wahhh sick

I caught a cold, a congested, runny nose, and coughing cold. I am hangin in there food wise and will be glad to start another new week on Sunday. I am really loving the idea of weekly clean slates because it keeps a feeling of newness to eating well. As most of you know I am big on setting short term (weekly) goals.

This past week was to cut down on coffee and I did a really good job. I want to keep up with the lowering the coffee intake and move forward with new weekly goals. Not 100% what I want to commit to this week but I will let ya know soon. I'm sure you are dying to know! ; )

For now I am going to enjoy a super exciting evening of a bath, book, and booze......haha right. Actually I may partake in a little drink in the tub to help me sleep. We shall see.

yuck day.

I had a rough day today, I was feeling yucky and I haven't been sleeping well at all. I started the day off good with a strawberry smoothie (almond breeze, greek yogurt, 1/2 banana, strawberries, and whey protein) and that was ok but by lunch I lost it.

I wanted comfort food and I wanted a lot of it. I went to panera and got a bowl of soup and a sandwich (not so bad I guess) both of which I ate most of including the bag of chips and the baguette. It was a lot of points.

I almost fell into a bad cycles and skipped dinner but I didn't I had a normal dinner, just a little on the high side. I have used all my weekly points and went over by 3 to boot. I have a couple choices now, give up (yeah freaking right) or press on trying to keep within my points for the rest of the week and get a little extra exercise tomorrow.

I am not going to beat myself up for this. It happens. Hopefully it won't happen much in the future, I don't think it will. I am going to relax for the rest of the evening, take my vitamin, and a lovely bubble bath.

Thanks to all of you giving me smoothie recipes and keep em coming!! I bought the vanilla protein powder do you prefer the chocolate?? Let me know. I bought the whole foods 365 brand.

BTW I have been looking at bikes on the cheap end of the spectrum and found a cute little cruiser/beach bike on the walmart website that I might get. I want to make sure I will use it though because I live in an apt and space is limited. What do you think do you bike?

Smoothie newbie

Any tips for a girl with a new blender and a desire to healthy up her breakfast routine?? I am clueless.

Today eating was ok up until right after dinner when the munchies hit. I drank a ton of water today but it was just not doing it for me. I tried eating popcorn for a low point punch and chewing gum didn't do it either. I took a bath, cleaned up, and took time to figure out my desire to eat. NOTHING worked I just wanted to eat and eat, still do.

I ended up eating chips the husband brought home (I don't keep them in the house because I cannot keep my hands off them) and now I am feeling pretty crappy about it. I'm not necessarily beating myself up about it but I know it was a poor choice.

I just wish I had given in a made something more substantial in the first place. Lesson learned.

break through...?

I just ate an apple for dessert.

WW week 1 = BIG LOSS!!

WW week 1 = BIG LOSS!! Actually no, I didn't loose anything which is very strange. Its okay I am still be more healthy and that is what it is all about.

So in about a month I will need to try on bridesmaid dresses for a January wedding. This is something that bothers me. I hate buying a dress that I will be wearing 6 months later because I never know where my body will be. I plan to buy the size that fits and if I loose then I will have to get it altered but on the bright side it will be because I lost weight!

I don't usually worry that I will gain too much to wear the dresses because my body usually stays around this shape/size. I plan to keep the ww online so hopefully my only worry will be having to take the dress in.

I am hoping that the bride decides to let us pick out our own style of dress but in the same color because then I can pick one that will work with a little loss. Unfortunately I know she wants long dresses which mean I will have to get it hemmed anyways.

Well onward to a new week, one hopefully with a decent catch up loss.

BBQ Plan

So today is a BBQ with friends and I am bringing a side. I chose to make a pasta salad but with a ww twist. I used smart pasta, light dressing and loaded it with veggies. Sure it has two types of cheese but one is a extra sharp cheddar so a little goes a long way. There will be grilled (obviously) chicken for me to eat and I am bringing my own diet coke. So I think I have this covered.

As for dinner, we have family visiting so I have no idea what is happening but I'm sure I will be able to make a decent choice. Here is to a lovely day off!

So I have been hanging in there, enjoying the lovely weather and counting my points. Not doing too bad but it is def an adjustment not to just pick something up and pop it into my mouth. But over all I am doing all right.

I am very excited to have the next 3 days off!! Yay! Take care of yourself, I hope you are having the same lovely weather we are!!

Day Two of weight watchers and I was over by 4 points..not too bad considering. It is a definite change in state of mind thinking about the worth of everything you put in your mouth. I realized that I drink too much coffee and too little water. Too much carbs too little fruit and veg.

So yeah that is all the reflection I have for tonight....sleep tight.

Day 1

So I got up this morning and I have started counting points. I do have to say that I do ww a little different than most people because I start my daily points at dinner time and end at lunch. This usually helps me curb my night time eating because I know that if I eat too much then I wont have any points for breakfast or lunch. I also find it much easier to curb lunch time points than dinner points.

I've decided that I am not really wanting to post pounds lost right away because I really want to take the focus away from that. Maybe once I get the hang of eating well again I will start posting weight loss, I do have a start weight though from this morning.

I am still down about 8 pounds from my start weight on the sidebar.

I am going to go grab some groceries in a couple hours and will be by myself which means carrying all those bags up to the third floor ! I also need to clear out the pantry/fridge so that it is ready for the good stuff!

Have a great day! Feel free to relive day one with me, you know what I mean that feeling of newness and excitement.

Whats the plan Stan?

I am feeling a little renewed today after a long sleep in this morning. I am feeling pretty positive about this summer even though I start my summer class tomorrow! I have scheduled my work/classes no earlier than 9 and I will have thursdays, fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays OFF!!!

That is pretty amazing to know that I will be able to have some time to myself this summer and to focus on my health/weight loss.

I have really come to determine that what I really want is not a number on the scale but rather to be seen as and feel like a healthy person. It would be lying to say I wont be thrilled to lose the pounds but I don't want it to be the focus which is another reason that I am not going back to weight watchers. I however do think that I will use the points system on my own.

Those of you who read my blog regularly will know that I have been bouncing back and forth with the whole counting points v. calories v. just eating healthy. I have given the last two a try and they aren't working for sure so it is back to points for me.

Tomorrow I am not working in the morning so I will go out and buy the healthy groceries I need to boost my weight watchers start. Tomorrow is the day that I start ww again for then umm the 7th time but hey a start is a start.

There are a lot of things that I want to do differently this time around
1. cut down on coffee
2. get up early to eat breakfast
3. exercise regularly in the mornings
4. Make it a lifestyle change not a diet
5. focus on health not just pounds- plateaus are usually the downfall point where I give up
6. back to blogging

Graduation Day

Ahh so I graduated today. Talk about a long long day. Lots and lots of emotional family junk happened but overall it was ok. I really enjoyed spending some time with my inlaws they took us out for dinner last night and again tonight (on a related note eating has been pretty bad).

My own mother on the other hand left right after I walked acrossed the stage and I didnt even get a chance to see her. I was really disappointed seeing all my friends with thier mothers having to explain that mine was already gone. I didnt even see her before graduation because she was so late getting there. She didn't even see anything wrong with leaving early to pick up balloons for my neices birthday that was 3 hours later in the day. I almost cried but was able to stop myself. I just don't get it. I am her FIRST child to graduate from college. Thanks for even more emotional baggage mother.

I am just glad that I had my inlaws there to support me, I am truely blessed in that way.

So as I said before I haven't been eating well the past couple days but the scale was down this morning...go figure. As for plans for this coming week I plan on cutting my morning coffees down to 2 a week, saving money and calories. I also plan on getting my house organized so that I can be ready to get back on a more healthy track.

So here we go, another week, another attempt at being a healthier me.

Last final tomorrow morning YAY!! Graduation is Saturday then my first summer class starts on Monday...no rest for the wicked I suppose.

I have been sticking to the eat well plan, nothing regimented but just trying to make good choices and it hasn't helped or hurt me so far. Next week back to a real loss plan....which one, that I do not know. Most likely weight watchers but this time I am really going to hit it with the exercise too. I have never really been able to marry the two, food and exercise but this summer I will have more free time up until August when my internship starts so here is to a good summer.

Wish me well tomorrow, fortunitly I calculated that I only need a 30 on this exam to get the grade I need so not too high pressure but it is essay format so hopefully I dont go blank!!!

HEYYYY there.....

Soo I'm mixing things up yet again. I know that you are all going to be shocked, I am going back to weight watchers. The program but not the meetings. I really dont want to spend the money on the meetings when we are so strapped for money, especially with me not working next year due to my internship.

I wish I could say that I feel strong about doing this on my own but I don't. I wish I could say "yes I will succeed this time and lose 65 pounds" but I really don't feel like I can. I know that there are probably a lot of people who would say that that is the wrong attitude for attacking such a big feat but its my honest feeling. Counting calories is just leaving too much room for error, I think oh I'm only 500 calories over my budget but when you look at it as points that is like 10 points over! Points just seem to mean more to me.

I have always had trouble with getting obsessed with points then getting irritated because counting calories is more real because bottom line is calories in and calories out right?

I feel like I have had so many starts and fails, but I know that I haven't given up. I just need to go full force because staying on plan 3 or 4 days a week just doesn't cut it. I need to give it my all.

Sooo here's the plan I am going to work on getting back on the weight watchers track starting tomorrow then as soon as finals are done I am going to start running again.

I will be going into work a little later this summer so I will have that extra free hour without even getting up any earlier! bonus. Also after finals I am going to start walking to work once or twice a week to give it a try, thats 30 minutes walking each way. Yeah an hour of cardio down a big hill then of course up it on the way home!

Just get me through this first week back on plan and through finals!!

I just wanted to let you all know that the more I read your blogs the more I know that I need to take care of myself. You are all amazing in your accomplishments and flaws. Even on your worst days you are there saying this is what happened, this is how I feel, and this is my plan. Thank you so much for being there for me. AND thank you to all of you still commenting on my blog, I don't deserve such loyalty! I will make it up to you soon I promise, finals are almost over!!