Sick girl

Hello sick girl here and I am happy to report I feel like I am finally coming out of it. Yes it is true I have been feeling awful, coughing, sore throat, achy, and just feeling overall rotten. I therefore have not gotten myself back on track just yet. My diet has consisted of orange juice, ritz crackers, grilled cheese with tomato soup, and of course the ultimate comfort food ice cream. Lots of ice cream. I've basically been in bed for the past 3 days.

I am feeling a lot better today as far as my cold goes but I am feeling horrible as far as my diet/exercise is concerned. I really wanted to be back on track this week, I need to be back on track. My cruise is next month and although I do not need or expect to lose 20lbs by then I do want to feel healthy. I want to feel in control and strong not bloated and overfull.

I am frustrated with myself because I know that it is not only my being sick that has prevented me from getting on with getting back on track. I'm lazy. I am so freaking lazy, I don't want to plan or cook or workout. I am lazy and pissed off at myself for gaining back who knows how much over this past month. I am guessing about 5lbs. I fought so hard to lose these 20lbs and I just gave it up for junk food and laziness.

Please understand that this is not a "oh poor me" post and I do not want you to tell me that I am being too hard on myself, I am actually too easy on myself. I need to stop being so easy on myself. I need to crack down and hold myself accountable. I need to make plans and follow through. I need to realize that my health is a priority and it effects every aspect of my life from my marriage to stress level.

Small steps. I need to make a single step in the right direction and that will lead me back on track. I will not sleep in tomorrow, I will set my alarm. This is a big step seeing as I have slept in for the past 2 weeks! Especially with being sick, don't tell but I slept in until 12:30 today. Tomorrow I will set my alarm for 9, I will get up and get myself organized. I will catch up on my cleaning, most importantly my kitchen so that I am more likely to cook healthy meals.

So this is what I will do to move in the right direction, I will also try to figure out a workout plan that I can stick to. To start I simply want to have some physical activity every day for at least 30 minutes. That is my goal. I am not specifying what activity, it may be yoga or a leisurely walk, maybe even getting back to running. I miss running, I know I can do this, I can be a runner.

Sorry for the long post, I just have a ton of thoughts running through my head! Wish me luck!