Still working..

I am still working on me, trying to figure out what is going to work long term. I am on my second day of getting back to running. I am trying a coaching program through the Nike+ that I have.

It is really set up quite differently than the couch to 5k but it is worth a try. It has shorter total times of running but the running intervals are longer. I am really trying to focus and stop thinking I'll try...or maybe I can.... Instead I will just DO IT! I can do it. It is not that I can't it is that I allow myself to give up.

I so want to be a runner and I know I can do it. I just need to push myself out of my comfort zone. This is probably my 3rd or 4th try at running but I am going to give it another try. It will be worth it.

In other news I did a major clothing purge tonight. I cleaned out my dresser and closet of all clothing that I haven't worn in the past 6 months. I got rid of clothing that has never fit right and the stuff that is too big. It feels so good to clear out all that extra stuff and give it to charity. I havea hard time getting rid of things that I MIGHT use in the future or that I paid good money for. It is such a waste but I am much better about purchasing things now. I am really focused on purchasing quality items.

When I first started losing weight I would buy things just because they fit....meaning that they buttoned. I didn't focus on things fitting well because I was just so happy to find clothing that fit. I would also purchase things because they were on sale. I have stopped that behavior I now ask myself if I really need things and I always double check my basket before I check out. That is a big change for me. I am more in control of my shopping now.

Control is a big issue for me. I need to be in control. I think that I need to keep up with running because it gives me control and relieves stress. It is so good for me.