Technical problems

Hey I just wanted to let everyone know that I am having some issues getting my comments. Usually I get my comments in my email and reply that way instead of through the blog so I am not ignoring you I promise!!! Thanks for all the comments that I missed but caught up on when I looked at my blog.

Eating out invites

So yesterday my friend invited me to ihop for breakfast Sunday and I kind of panicked a little thinking "high point food that I am not really crazy for".  Since Sunday is my weigh in day I told her I couldn't because I didn't want to eat right before my weigh in and moved on.

Then surprise a text from my friend tonight saying" so ihop after your weigh in tomorrow right?" ok miscommunication there. So I said "ok, see you at 10:15". Not the best plan for my points but it will be nice to visit with her. 

I tend to have a hard time saying no to invitations from friends and those invites usually involve eating out. I also have a hard time ordering food that isn't exactly what I want so I tend to just order what I want and use up using my weekly35 on it. It is something that I definitely need to work on. I am just someone who would rather have a little of the real stuff than a ton of the fake stuff. Example- fat free cheese..not in my house. 

Ok I cannot help myself are you ready for the terrible, probably inappropriate come on have a sense of humor joke?? If not then stop reading.

If girls with big boobs work at Hooters, where do girls with one leg work?

Answer- IHOP  ; )

Breakfast? Is it really necessary?

I'll admit it, I don't really eat breakfast. I am a get out of bed and be out the door in 45minutes kind of girl. I could make time by getting up earlier but it takes me about 2 hours before I can feel like eating in the morning. There is nothing that is appealing to me in the morning. 

With that being said I know that it is recommended to eat breakfast but to me it seems like if I can go without using points on breakfast that leaves me with even more points for the rest of the day. I guess what I am wondering is ..is it hurting my weight loss? Sometimes I have coffee, won't that get my metabolism going, the same as eating? Can drinking something (like milk or creamer) make up for not eating breakfast?

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Still a little nervous about exercising today, I don't want to take any chances with the tummy. Food is pretty good today, I am in the low points as planned. I had some yummy subway for lunch and pasta for dinner. I didn't really snack at all today which is good because snacking is always what kills me. 

I don't really have much else to say pretty boring day, ran some errands and cleaned  the house. I also found out that my grant has been delayed so I out of work for yet another week. On the plus side that means I get to start my semester without worrying about work but on the negative it is another week of no pay. 

Oh I guess one interesting thing that happened today was that I got an email from a friend who is very outdoorsy and active. I had asked her if she kayaks and she replied with

"We should make a plan to go kayaking this summer, it will
be fun. Okay, this what we'll do. This late spring, we will go kayaking, (or
canoeing, we have a canoe), rock climbing (you need to try it), sailing (we
have a boat), and we'll end the day by jumping off a huge cliff into a the
lake."

Wow those are some big plans and all things that I would never dare to do. But I said yes! I want to have adventures and will the weight that I plan to lose by spring (about 20lbs) I think I will be able to do it. I am so lucky to have a friend that is so willing to take the time to teach me all these things. I am soo excited!! This is the life I want to live and the things I want to do in my spare time instead of sitting on my bum watching reruns on tv. 

life

Still recovering today, but I am feeling much better. Believe it or not but I actually wanted to exercise today. Unfortunately I wasn't feeling well enough to do anything. I am hopeful that tomorrow I will at least be able to get in some treadmill time.

 I have been thinking about using the Wendie Plan in the coming month just to mix things up. I am doing a slight modification of it this week, simply having one high point day (today)followed by a low point day to see what will happen. Weigh in is on Sunday so here is hoping for a decent loss to make up for last weeks slightly disappointing number. 

As many of you might know I keep my weekly weight loss goals are pretty low at one pound per week. I am trying to except this as a slow and steady process in which to change my relationship with food. Anything more than the one pound is simply a bonus to me.

Sicky Poo

I just woke up, yea it is almost 5pm. What ever was happening with my stomach craps yesterday got me again this morning. I didn't sleep all night I was in pain so I took a tylenol pm which didn't really work. I got up at 11 and could barely stand up my stomach hurt so bad. I ate a sandwich thinking it might help. I headed to the tub thinking that the hot water would soothe the pain, it helped a little and then I went back to bed. You know I am sick when I cant even read my fav blogs in bed. 

I am feeling a lot better now but I have to say I am so perplexed as to what is going on with my body. I still have a headache/possible fever(can't find my thermometer) so I am laying in bed with a cold cloth on my head. I am still very achey but it is such an improvement from what I felt this afternoon that I can function. 

I have only used 5 points today so I know I can have something really comforting for dinner and not feel overly bad about it. I am thinking spaghetti. It's the only thing the husband can cook and I am not cooking today thats for sure. I am not really hungry at all but I know that I need to eat.  All of a sudden Spaghetti for dinner is sounding really gross. I don't know maybe some soup. We will see. 

I hope you are all doing much better than I am! Take care of your bodies. 

update

I managed with the help of motivation of the biggest loser to walk on my treadmill for 60minutes, yeah thats an hour! Nice since I thought that 30 was going to be a stretch with the cramps I have been having all day. 

I still have 5 points left for the day but since it is almost 10pm I think I won't be getting them in. Is that really bad? Some days I just don't need all those points and some day I go over. I think that as long as I am not regularly way under my daily points it should be fine. I ate 3 meals today but just wasn't really snacky. I ate moderately healthy, getting in some veggies, my dairy, and of course my water. 

What is your opinion on this? DO you think it is bad to not eat all your points once or twice a week? Do you make yourself eat those points?

PS Joelle should have gone home/ I love the orange team

Lalala Lala. Just here not too much to say, went grocery shopping at Whole foods got some good stuff. My tummy is hurting today, a little crampy so I have been just hanging out on the couch today. I am going to take some midol and see if it helps then maybe hope on the treadmill for 30. 

I done pretty well with food today I actually still have 9 points left and have gone above and beyond my water goal for the day. We did eat lunch and dinner in the kitchen but it was hard. I'm not sure we will be able to keep up eating dinner in the kitchen for long but the snacking is a must!

2 goals met/partially met

Today I ran my c25k so run one for the week down so I partially met that goal for the week already! I made a rough draft of possible dinner ideas so that meets another goal. My water intake is good, so so far I am doing well. 

Night snacking-answers

I think that I have found something to try to curb my night time snacking. I found this tip on the weight watchers site, it was actually one of the plateau beating tools. It says that you set ground rules to beat what is holding you back, so for my night time eating it would be that I eat only in the kitchen. 

That means no sneaking into the kitchen on commercial breaks and grabbing something. If I am really hungry then I won't mind sitting in the kitchen while I eat it. However if my favorite show is on then I am not going to want to miss it unless I am really really hungry. 

I have to admit that we are eat dinner in front of the tv types of people and that has to stop. I am going to extend this rule to say that no food leaves the kitchen. We will eat at the table, snack at the table, and be able to focus on what we are eating. Maybe even get some dinner music to relax to. I am going to run the dinner idea past the husband and I will let you know how the kitchen only snacking  works. 

DIet Coke is good

Some of you may remember not too long ago when I quit drinking diet coke for about 4 months. I quit cold turkey and it wasn't that hard for me even though I was drinking 6-10 cans a day. I ended up drinking it again because it was a "free" sweet treat while I was on weight watchers. 

As you may have guessed I am thinking about stopping my dc habit. I am drinking 2-4 a day now which is a vast improvement from before. I still hate the idea of being addicted to something, and DC is adictive for me. I crave it when I am stressed, happy, and bored. 

Yes it is a seemingly safe diet treat but water is better. I feel better when I drink more water. I want to note that it isn't a fake sugar issue with me, I understand the risks of fake sugar but it is my choice to use or not use them. When I drink my water I usually use a flavor packet to help me from getting water bored. I am currently in love with sugar free grape kool-aid. As a matter of fact I have bee choosing the sf kool-aid over the DC lately and I am ok with that. 

So  some of my goals lately have been to cut down on my dc and to drink more water, I am going to stick with that same idea. I am going to try to cut down to 1 diet Coke a day until my supply is gone. I have about 3 left in the box. Then I will see how I feel and maybe not buy any more fridge packs. I may drink it when I am out at dinner, or pick up a bottle at the store when I am running errands but I want it to become a treat rather than an addiction. 

I am a big fan of moderation and that is what I am working on in my life. I want to make eating out a special occasion or treat. I want to eat cake but not just because it is there rather because it is a treat. I want to make these things special. When you eat out all the time you don't even enjoy it as much, if you ate cake everyday it would get boring (maybe), I don't have to work out 5 hours a day, but 30min to an hour is good. It is time to realize that moderation is key. 

On another note I am down 2lbs today, but since I was up 1.2 last week it is really just a .8 loss but I am ok with it. I worked really hard this week and just because it didn't necessarily show up this week, maybe next week it will. Either way it was a loss not a gain! 

My worries and my plan

I'm worried. I have so much on my plate this semester. I am taking 6 classes and working 20 hours a week. I have to get a c or better in 4 of those classes in order to graduate in May. I am so concerned that I will mess this semester up. I find it so hard to study and concentrate on a regular basis and tend to end up cramming the night before the exams. To top it off one of my classes I am retaking because I got a D in it last semester and needed a c. 

Losing this weight is a priority right now, but so is school. I think that I will really need to focus on creating a schedule and sticking to it. I know that I need to plan my food in advance and prepare/pack my healthy foods. 

The bright side I have had these couple weeks off to get a little head start in my weight loss. I still have this coming week to plan and prepare. Also I have only one night class this semester, compared to the three I had last semester. 

I have a lot of things to look forward to this year and they will all be more fun if I feel comfortable in my skin. I am graduating, that means pictures and memories for the rest of my life. I am taking a trip to visit my friend in Florida in July and I want to feel comfortable in shorts and tank tops.

 I know that I won't drop 50lbs in 5 months, I know my body and it works slow and steady but I can surely knock off 20-30lbs by then. Right now I am dreaming of the 170's but then the 160's and possibly the 150's by the time I go to Florida. How freaking amazing would that be? I think that I am taking the right steps, the BLBE will take me through the next 16weeks/20lbs and I am ready. 

I am making myself a priority, I have in the past had money troubles that made it hard to stay at weight watchers but now it is a priority. I have a job through August with my grant so I know that ww is covered at least until then. I am scheduling in my workouts and finding time for myself. I am holding myself accountable for my health.

 I want to be healthy and happy, who could ask for more? I am a future teacher and I want to be a healthy role model for my students. I do not want to fear being judged by my looks but rather by the person that I am inside. I am tired of being intimidated by people thinner than me. 

* I am in control of my health, I have no one to thank or blame for the way I am. I know that I can do it. I know that anyone can do it. You are worth it. You are worth that walk to clear your mind, you are worth the time it takes to plan out your healthy meals, you are worth it to yourself, your kids, your spouse,  and even your dog! Take that walk, that time, and make yourself a better you. 

night snacking

Night munchies are getting me down and I hate it. I feel so compulsive in my night time eating lately. I really need to shut down my kitchen at 7pm and stick to it.

 I have tried taking a bath, chewing gum, brushing my teeth, drinking fluids, and watching tv to take my mind off eating but it isn't working. It also seems like the second I decide to have one snack I need to keep snacking. I cannot seem to get satisfied. I know that my dinner was fine/enough to hold me through but it is just mindless wanting. 

Anyone have any other ideas to curb night time snacking?

metacognition

Sometimes after a long hard dieting and workout week I look at my  body and I think why am I still fat. It is such a hard concept to think that losing weight doesn't just happen, it is a process. I look at my stomach and think where did all this come from and why won't it go away. How can you wrap your head around it. How do I see progress with so far yet to go?

I know that I can gauge progress by taking measurements, seeing change in my choices, and how I feel in general but how do you catch the mental up with the physical?

I like the concept of weight loss being calories in vs. calories out however that isn't even really true. If I don't eat enough my weight loss stops/ plateaus, even if I eat my points I have to take into consideration how to use my activity points. Do I use my 35 flex points or not? I know I can but then why aren't they part of my daily points? It can really be a lot to think about and calculate if you let yourself. 

Please know that this is not a blog asking for answers I know all the basic answers to these questions. It is just to put it all out there and hopefully I am not the only one who thinks these things. I am really trying hard to not let myself become obsessed the numbers, so I figured that by writing these thoughts out then maybe they will deflate and not become an issue. 

Take care and have a healthy Sunday!

Weekly Goals

I have to brag I met all my goal for last week and more. This week I plan on setting some similar goals to last week's.

- Keep up the water intake 60 oz minimum a day.

- Run C25K at least twice 

- Make a weekly dinner menu 

How do you plan you weekly dinners? I think I will make a list of options and then choose from the list. But the flaw with that is if say the chicken is frozen then I would need to take it out in advance. But it also allows me to pick a lower point dinner as needed for the day. Hrm I don't know. I would love to hear how you do it so leave me a comment and give me some ideas PLEASE!!    ; )

Exercise for today was good, 30 min walk/run and 30 min yoga. Time for my bubble bath! I hope everyone is having a great Saturday!

postpone.

So I feel like I am retaining a lot of water and the scale is showing it as of this morning. I usually weigh in on Sunday morning but I think I am going to push it back until Monday morning.

It might sound like I am just buying time but the truth is that I have been within my points all week and I have earned 18 activity points about 15 of which I probably won't even eat. I don't want to get discouraged by a poor weigh in again. So I am hoping for a big loss on Monday!  I deserve it! 

Also I managed to get 3 more new bras today from Victoria's Secret....da da da on sale for $14.99 each!! Woo. It's amazing how much better I feel about myself in these new bras with my girls high and tight! My posture is much improved for sure.