I've lost myself again. NO I am not eating all crazy but I am not tracking. If you live in a cold climate you can probably understand when I say that this weather is killing my soul. I literally feel like the life is being sucked out of me. I have the "winter blues" and I cannot seem to climb out the the depression. I am cranky and pretty much miserable to be around. I hate it. I know I am acting cranky but I just cannot snap out of it. I just feel like I don't care about anything, I want to sleep all the time, and be left alone. It drives me even more nuts just knowing that I can see how I am acting but still cannot change it. I just feel so alone.
I need to stop and take control. I know that I just need to make a change, set some goals, and make some concrete plans. This weekend is dedicated to making some plans for the renovations on the house that we will be making using our tax return. Putting monetary values on the jobs and setting dates for action. I tracked my food today and will track tomorrow.
Something has got to change.