Sunday, March 28, 2010

weigh in day

Well I got my wish! I am down 1.4lb! I am so happy with that especially since I am having my monthly visit. It isn't the usual 4lb loss, start of ww weigh in but I will take it.

I am happy. Now for lunch. Have a great Sunday!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

500th Post!

Wow it is hard to believe that this is my 500th post, where does the time go?

I wish I had something exciting to mark this spectacular numeric occasion but I don't really. I am pretty much just trying to get back into the ww online thing. I have counted points all week and I am hoping to see at least a small loss tomorrow. I checked in this morning (I know..bad) and I was the same as when I started..bummer but I cannot expect miracles. I guess I am just used to seeing a big loss in the first weigh in.

My goal for tomorrows weigh in is to except whatever number I see and just keep working. Either way I had a healthier week and I am moving towards the right direction.

I did get a few walks in this past week. I struggled on the days I was at class until 6 becasue once I got home and ate dinner it was too late to walk. I have found that if I walk too close to my bedtime I struggle to get to sleep and end up tossing and turning all night. Its not an excuse it is just life. On the days I didn't have class I worked out as soon as I got home from school and that was great.

So this coming week I plan on just keeping at it!

Monday, March 22, 2010


Got my 30 minute walk in today! Progress. I also passed on going to dinner at a restaurant tonight because I just knew anything that I ordered would put me over my daily points and I'm not ready for that temptation yet.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

back to ww

Shocking..right? I am back to do ww online. I bought simple healthy groceries and I am ready to go. And go is what I need to do...meaning I need to get some more activity in for sure. I want to get back to running. I want to start slow though. My plan is to walk 30 minutes a day. That is manageable. How can I deny myself 30 minutes for my health.

I have learned one thing about working out. I cannot do it close to bedtime which is typically when I cna find time. If I work out right before bed I am wired all night. Wait....what does that tell you...yeah working out gives you energy. Duh, Jess. Maybe morning workouts are best. So I am going to start with walking 30 minutes a day in the early evening but I am also going to work on getting up earlier. But not to work out. If I know the only reason I am getting up is to work out I am soo much more likely to say no way and sleep in. So instead I will just get up earlier and enjoy my coffee without a rush and slowly work myself up to getting up at 6.

I know that if I throw myself into to much too quickly I will burn out . It is just too much change at once that kills me. So slow and steady is the plan.

Monday, March 15, 2010

15lbs in 12 weeks.

So that's how it breaks down. I need to lose a little over a pound a week to fit into my dress. Here is hoping! My last other idea is to put a corset in the back of the dress. If the dress isn't looking like it will close 6 weeks before the wedding I am going to look into getting that done.

Really it needs to be about 10lbs at the 6 week mark in order for me to stand a chance in the dress fitting in time. I realize that putting a time limit is usually not a good idea but truthfully it isn't about a choice at this point. I either will lose it or not in which case I need a back up plan. Thankfully the Bride isn't a picky person and wouldn't care if I altered the dress. The other perk that would help that situation is that I am the maid of honor and I am the only one wearing this style of dress!

My ideal plan is to lose though because I need to lose the weight either way.

Oh yeah I also have a plan to weigh in with a friend of mine at her house on Sundays. She is this gorgeous girl with a little junk in the trunk she wants to get rid of! I really respect her and I know that I won't want to disappoint her. The only downfall would be that we have a history of starting things and not finishing them!

So here is to a new start.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Dress dilemmas

Hey remember this when I was talking about buying my bridesmaid dress. Well i ended up going with a 14 and and now really regretting that decision...the dress does NOT fit. SHit. I tried it on tonight and well its not pretty. The wedding is in 3 months almost to the day. I am weighing in at about 184, when I picked it out I was about 175 needing to lose about 5 lbs. That leaves me needing to lose about 15lbs.

In 3 months. Yeah it is totally doable. I just have to switch my focus back to working my ass off. I have got to get myself together.

I love this dress and I do not want to despise it. I want to enjoy it. I am going to count points again...I know shocking right lol. Someone please give me crap the next time I quit ww's ok?

Monday, March 8, 2010

Still working..

I am still working on me, trying to figure out what is going to work long term. I am on my second day of getting back to running. I am trying a coaching program through the Nike+ that I have.

It is really set up quite differently than the couch to 5k but it is worth a try. It has shorter total times of running but the running intervals are longer. I am really trying to focus and stop thinking I'll try...or maybe I can.... Instead I will just DO IT! I can do it. It is not that I can't it is that I allow myself to give up.

I so want to be a runner and I know I can do it. I just need to push myself out of my comfort zone. This is probably my 3rd or 4th try at running but I am going to give it another try. It will be worth it.

In other news I did a major clothing purge tonight. I cleaned out my dresser and closet of all clothing that I haven't worn in the past 6 months. I got rid of clothing that has never fit right and the stuff that is too big. It feels so good to clear out all that extra stuff and give it to charity. I havea hard time getting rid of things that I MIGHT use in the future or that I paid good money for. It is such a waste but I am much better about purchasing things now. I am really focused on purchasing quality items.

When I first started losing weight I would buy things just because they fit....meaning that they buttoned. I didn't focus on things fitting well because I was just so happy to find clothing that fit. I would also purchase things because they were on sale. I have stopped that behavior I now ask myself if I really need things and I always double check my basket before I check out. That is a big change for me. I am more in control of my shopping now.

Control is a big issue for me. I need to be in control. I think that I need to keep up with running because it gives me control and relieves stress. It is so good for me.

Monday, March 1, 2010


What is your favorite Weight Watchers friendly cereal? aka high fiber cereal.

Hey Guys!

I am home from school today, I just needed an extra day off. I feel like I have not had a single break since before the cruise. Yeh i know the cruise should have been a break but really we traveled with a go go go couple and I ended up more tired after vacation than before. So anyways I took today off to get my life back together.

I really feel like that was a good choice. Yesterday I felt incredibly anxious about the coming week and was not feeling ok about life. I was feeling overwhelmed and upset for no particular reason. This morning I feel better about things. I have started tracking again and have made a really good grocery list which I will take care of tomorrow. I am planning more and thinking about meals when I write my grocery list instead of healthy bits and pieces that I dont even end up using. I am really going to try an focus on getting a good breakfast in the mornings too.

As I write this entry I know that I have written similar post before. I am tired of letting myself down. I really just need to keep focus no matter how many weeks I plateau, I need to remember that it will end eventually and that a plateau is better than gaining all the weight back! That is what happens! I plateau, give up and gain it back. I have got to break tht cycle. So here is to trying again.