Wednesday, September 30, 2009

In control for a road trip

Just a note. As I mentioned in a previous post today I am planning on a trip up north to the inlaws. Typically once I get in the car to drive up all diets are off. I give up the second the door closes behind me. First stop is always for coffee which leads to a donut or bagel. Umm not thank you. This trip I am going to change that.

I will get coffee but I am going to pack some food to eat/ eat a big lunch before I leave. I know that I cannot control much about the meals I have this weekend but I am going to focus on portion control. I am going to avoid all the sweets (my MIL always bakes when we are there). I could ask her not to make them but that is not realistic. There are other people living there and I am not going to deprive them of treats that they only get to enjoy every once in a while. I will just have to focus. I know I can do it.

I think just writing this down helps me feel control. I know that I can do it if I plan. If all else fails I am going to keep avoiding using my flex points so I will have those to use if needed. I can also get some walking in while I am there. I still have a week + until we go so I just need to keep this in mind. I am in control of how this weekend goes.


I'm a potato loving FREAK! I baked 2 potatos today thinking that I would eat one for lunch and keep the other for home fries later in the week. SO I ate the first potato, yum delicious and I start thinking hrmm theres another potato out there, I might as well eat it, I mean its only 4 points with some butter. I put it on my plate stuck it in the microwave to heat it back up.

I headed into the living room waiting for the beep. Then I stopped said to myself "you aren't hungry anymore why are you eating the other one?" SO I turned around pulled out some foil tossed the second potato in and put it in the fridge.

Moral of the story, stop think and listen to your body. You might not need that second helping.

home day

So I decided to stay home today and take a little break. My weekends have benn really full and I haven't had a day off to myself for a while. So far it has been a good morning. I woke up and hopped on the scale, I saw a good number.

I have to say eating just my 23 points must work. I wish I had realized this 4 month ago. Its not easy to stay with in such a small amount of points but so far it hasn't been too bad. Of course I haven't had to eat out yet either. I wonder why I have always been told to eat my flex? I suppose I should have realized that I would lose more if I didn't but I guess I thought the 35 was built into my weekly calories.

I am kind of shocked to think about how many calories I must have been consuming when I used all my flex points. AND I thought I was being good and dieting. It really pisses me off that if I had just reined myself in those extra points that I could have lost so much more weight. Oh well I guess now I know. SO maybe basically the flex points are just to keep you from going crazy when you go over your points? I feel like I am looking at ww from new eyes.

Next weekend we will be traveling up north and visiting the family. It should be nice but also it should be a food challenge. On the plus side I am (from todays impromptu weigh in) about 17lbs lighter than the last time the family has seen me. It should be interesting to see if they notice and even if they do they might not say anything. I had been waiting to visit until November so that it would be an even bigger difference but that's ok.

Anyways this is post one of the day off know there will probably be more since I will be home thinking about life with my computer.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I have been logging my food on both ww and calorie count and have found that although my points are correct I am taking in way too many calories! I have used 22 out of the 24 points today but have consumed 1300 calories. To put that in perspective, I need to take in 1200 or less calories to lose 2lbs a week. Very interesting.

I am still sticking to ww this week to see what happens but I am definitely leaning towards going to counting calories.

EDIT- I checked my points quiz and since I hit 174 this week I have now dropped down to 23 points a day. BTW why don't your points adjust on thier own as you log your weight online?


I don't want to end up 50 years old and still hating the way I look. I have fought too long and hard. I want to be a hottie at 30. The real reason that is the basis for wanting to lose weight is that I want to be healthy when I get pregnant. I don't want to have the baby and have to worry about losing 50+ lbs when it is all said and done. I want to be a healthy pregnant person and have minimal weight to lose when the baby is born. This is something I think about a lot. I want to be able to focus on my children not my weight.

I want them to know what a healthy lifestyle is all about. I never knew how to eat healthy. The only veggies that I was offered as a child were corn (starch), potatos (starch),cucumbers, peas(blech) and lettuce on taco night. Lucky for me my husband loves everything so even if I don't eat the veggies like I should he will be able to set a good example and I plan to pretend to like all the veggies too! my kids will be veggie lovers whether they like it or not!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

New scale

I just ordered this scale and I hope it proves to be as accurate as the reviews say. I also hope it doesn't say I weigh more than I think I do!

Weekly Goals

Ok so I am setting my weekly goals according to some advice that I have received on my posts.

- Try not to use any flex points
- cut back to 1 diet coke a day
- Run 3 days, walk 2

So that is it for now although there are many other areas I know I will work on too. Those are the ones I am more focused on. I am trying to get more used to eating less processed foods, more fruit for snacks and veggies with meals. I really need to put in the effort in order to see the results that I want.

Down a lb?

So yesterday I hadn't lost an ounce but this morning my scale said I was down a pound. DO I believe it? Well here are my concerns, I took midol yesterday since I started my period so it may be that the bloat was down a little this morning, and the other odd this is that my scale sucks.

I have 2 scales, they are off from each other by about 4lbs. The regular spring scale is the one that I go by because my digital scale has always been high( I used to weigh myself before I went to ww meetings and compare). The spring scale seems to bounce around after I weigh myself sometimes it bounces back lower or higher than 0, does that mean the number I get is off? I don't really know. I think I need a new scale. I think I am going to do a little research and purchase a new one. SO if you have any suggestions I am taking them.

Basically I am going to take the lower weight and hope it sticks! That means I am down 15lbs. I am hoping that this means I have broken this plateau. Once I lose 2 more lbs and I am at my lowest weight in 10 years!!! Maybe next week!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Life as I know it.

I'm ready for something to happen. I am ready to get out of this rut I am in. I am working working working in every aspect of my life and yet nothing seems to be happening. I am floating in school and eating simply. I am moving along in my student teaching at a snails pace. Although that is one place that will change because Monday is my first day of subbing on my own. It is in my regular classroom and the kids have been out of control this past week! I hope it goes well.

Sometimes I wish I could skip a year ahead. In a year I see myself moved back to where my husband's family lives, in a home of my own with a job at a school and planning my family. I would be done with school ( 2 classes shy of my masters) and just moving forward with my life. I see myself healthy and fit. Living.

I know that time is precious and I shouldn't wish it away however at this point I would avoid much stress and exhaustion. I am simply tired and ready for a new stage in my life to start. I am doing the work now to set the rest of my life.

I just hope that I am good enough. That I can prove that I deserve a teaching job. I hope our finances are in a good enough state that we can afford a home and then consequently to have a family. I am so full of insecurity right now, I cannot wait to feel more confident and settled.

the switch?

So I sneaked a day early peek at the scale change WTF? I did get my period this afternoon so that may have an effect on my weight but geez.

I decided that I am giving weight watchers one more week then I am going to cancel my online subscription. I will then try to move on to counting calories. My main worry about counting calories is that there is no true accountability, but I suppose that there isn't really any with ww online either. I think I might try again. So I guess this week will decide how I proceed.

What has also what this on is that my friend that I am going on the cruise with has been using the calorie counting method and has had much better results than I have. I think that maybe I just need to focus on calories in and calories out. My first question is..What do you do if you are going to spurge and go over your calories? Ww did prepare me for that....DO you just cut back the next day or work out more? I am thinking that counting calories may be more realistic than ww. I am so confused.

What do you think? Have you switched from counting points to counting calories?

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I'm pissed off at myself. A whole month of not losing any weight is unexceptable. I know I must be doing something wrong, missing something. I am following the healthy guidelines, keeping to my points, changing up my food, getting exercise and anything else I can think of. I must be drinking melted butter in my sleep! Does homework have calories? I am on my feet all day long in a classroom moving around. We walk a mile a day most days, and I am running 2-3 times a week. My points are set for the lowest activity level. I eat all my points, flex, and activity too some weeks.

On area I know I should work on is eating less precessed foods. I could cut back on the diet coke and drink more water. (I do get the 6 servings of water recomended).

I feel like something has got to give. I have been so patient with my weight loss this time but I do need some progress I am human after all. Please understand I am not in any way shape or form planning on giving up, like I would have before. I am not binging, just trucking along.

Bottom line keep me in your weight loss prayers, I could use the help!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

This is week four of weighing 175lbs. It kinda sucks. I'm disappointed because I am following the program. I know that my only choice is to wait it out and keep doing what I am doing. I really hope I see a change next week. Clearly eating all my points (including activity) was a bad idea. I will try to stick to my daily points and flex points this week. Possibly even trying to keep 1/2 my flex too. There is no way I am meeting my goal at this rate! I need to focus.

I did meet most of my goals. I did drink a bottle of water 5 out of 7 mornings (not too bad). I ran 3 times (check) and I didn't weigh myself until today (check). So not too bad there.

I plan on keeping the same exact goals for this week because I think they are good ones.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Friday morning

I just wanted to say that last night I got some mind boggling new (its ok I was just surprised) and instead of turning to ice cream ( I had already had a frozen yogurt cone!) I hopped on the treadmill and did my run!! Wow I am sooo hoping that this will be a stress reliever trend in my life. AND it totally worked. I felt so much better after I ran, not totally but much.

Well I am off to school (student teaching) then off to class. It's Friday, yay! I have to baby sit for a wedding on Saturday from 2:30pm to 1 am and it is a 40 minute drive from my house. SHould be a long night however I will make god cash and be able to get some homework done after the kiddos go to bed! Theres a plus because there is a lot of it to do!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Exhausted check in

So I just wanted to do a mid week goal check in. So far I have started the day with a 20oz bottle of water, I haven't weighed in and I have run once. All on schedule. Tomorrow is a run day but I am thinking I may have to shift it to Friday since I am in class until 6:30pm. We shall see how I feel when I get home. In that case my third run would push to Sunday which is technically a new week but I am trying to be flexible. I realize I could just get up and run in the am tomorrow but I just don't wanna!! (said with a pout)

SO far so good!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Will I ever wear a bikini?

I have always thought that I would never wear a bikini that I had ruined my body. I have had stretch marks on my belly and hips as long as I can remember. A lot of them are old faded to white but still visable. My question is for those of you who are near your goal....Do you bare your belly? Have your stretch marks changed with the weight loss? Will I even wear a bikini!?

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Goals for the week

Goal #1
NO weighing myself until Sunday
Goal #2
Start the day with a full bottle of water
Goal #3
run 3 times (tues, th, sat)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

10 weeks

Just a glimpse into my thoughts.

In 10 weeks I will see my family who I haven't seen since July. I hadn't lost a noticable amount of weight last time I saw them so my progress went pretty much unnoticed. I have 10 or so weeks until I see them again. If I could lose 10lbs in those 10 weeks then I would be down a total of 25lbs when they saw me. That would be so sweet.

So 10 weeks and 10 pounds is the plan. I want to make a splash when I see everyone at Thanksgiving. It is actually my husband's side of the family who we see for this holiday including the sister in law from hell who thinks it is her goal in life to prove she is better than us. I know I know I need to be doing this for me not for the effect on other people but boy would losing those pounds make me feel good!!

5 to go.

I have 5lbs to go before I hit my 10%. I have never hit my 10% the most I have lost is 18lbs. I am at 14lbs down right now so I have 5 more to go to hit that goal. I also haven't been under 173 in 5 or so years. 173 was the lowest I ever hit at weight watchers and then I plateaued for a while and gave up.

I am queen of the plateau. I honestly never lose for more than 2 or 3 weeks in a row followed by 2-3 weeks of plateauing. My body just doesn't want to give it up! But I am not falling for it this time. This time I am going to ride out the plateaus until they break. I am done screwing around. I will keep going until I get to my goal weight. At this pace it will be in a year or two but what ever it will be worth it when it happens.

PS hopefully not longer than 2 years because we plan on starting our family then!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Checking in

I am feeling a little lost. I think because I haven't seen progress in a couple weeks. I have been eating pretty well but maybe not well enough. I'm not saying that the program isn't working but I guess I know when I don't give it my all then I can't expect results. I'm trying but I guess not hard enough.
I think that I need to mix it up a little. I am working on keeping my points in check, probably not using all of my flex and none of my activity. That's the plan Stan. I am also kicking up my activity this week. Did I mention that the school I am interning at does a walking program? Most days weather permitting we walk a mile in the morning. I am loving it.

Monday, September 7, 2009


I'm having some issues with my Nike mini. I ran today but it isn't showing up and my mini is now saying private again. Its more than a little frustrating when you run and don't get credit for it. It is really nice to work towards a goal and unfortunately this run isn't counting towards my nike goal of running x amount of times in a month. Stinkin technology!

Workout plan?

SO I am thinking about setting a workout schedule hoping that it will help me stay accountable. When I workout I tend to eat better and feel better so I think that it is key to get that back on track for sure. SO here is the schedule I came up with.
Sun- 30 day shred
Wed- yoga
Thurs- run
Fri- walk
Sat- Run

It looks pretty good to me however I have been so exhausted when I get home from teaching that it will definitely be tough. Just thinking about doing the 30 day shred makes me want to cry but I figured that it was a good idea to get it in there to make sure I am really pushing myself. I am also turning back to the c25k because I think that it really helped keep me on track. Once I started doing my own intervals things seemed to drop off pretty quick.

I have always struggled with getting bored, I can't seem to stick to much so I figured that this schedule has some good variety in which to keep me interested. I think it is also good to know what the plan is. I wont be thinking "oh I should run or something" It will be "Oh it is Saturday I need to run."

I have also GOT to start getting up early again. I can get so much more accomplished. I have been thinking that working out in the morning isn't going to happen because as hard as it is to get up early it is even harder when you know that the first thing you have to do is workout. I am thinking I will set a schedule for my day scheduling my workout between 3:30 (when I get home from school) and 5:30 making dinner. The only problem with that is that if I don't do it then I know after dinner it probably wont happen at all. Well I think I have a lot of thinking to do, my main point is that I need to do some scheduling to keep myself on track.

Ps I stayed the same this week, better than gaining I suppose. Next week must be a loss!

Sunday, September 6, 2009

banana bread

Does anyone have a good healthy (low point) banana bread recipe?
So, I am hanging in here. During my period I was up 5lbs and freaking out but I am back to 175 again now that I am done. Thanks goodness! I think I would have cried! It is so hard to even think when you are trying so hard to be on track and you gain but luckily I was able to keep my head straight and know that it was a false gain.

Tomorrow I am going apple picking at a local farm, FUN. Also while there my cousin who is a photographer is going to do some fun pictures of my husband and I. I am planning on wearing a cute little sundress which is probably and little much for apple picking but should be cute for the pics! Wish me luck!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Excited and Exhausted

I am so BLOATED! God I haven't have a period with this much bloating in ages!I feel huge. I have been trying to drink water to try to get rid of it but nothing seems to be working. I took midol and it is helping with the cramps but geez. It is the first week of school and I look like a house in my dress clothes. I am five days into my TOM and it needs to stop.

Being in the classroom for two days getting ready has kicked my bum. Kids come tomorrow and I think it will make the day fly by, heres hoping. Did I mention I am tired. But I am loving the feeling of being a teacher. I may just be student teaching but it is nice to feel important like I am making a difference.

I am excited and exhausted.