Saturday, January 16, 2010

What are you fighting?

So I have officially gained 5lbs since November, my focus is lost. I thought it was becasue I was sick of weight watchers but I think it is just me. I have lost that spark.

I think that it all seemed to go downhill when I stopped working out. I keep meaning to get back on the running bandwagon but facing the treadmill is really daunting at this point. I can feel myself in the same old pattern where I lost about 20lbs then gain it all back if not a little bit more. I f'n hate it. I hate it. I hate that I can see myself slipping and yet I am just letting it happen. I am pissed at myself, why can't I just snap out of it and get back to the plan.

What I have tried.
- planning meals
-drinking a ton of water
-planning workouts
-drinking less diet coke (I do have less cravings at night)
- changing my diet plan (stopping ww, trying intuitive eating)
- no alcohol (this isn't that hard for me)

I'm tired and I know it is because I am so inactive. I live in Maine and it is cold and dark the majority of the day. It's hard to get outside. It is hard to get up early when it is dark. Sure these are all valid excuses but complaining isn't going to change them. Whining about it won't make Maine turn into a warm climate. I am really trying to suck it up and realize that although these might make it more difficult my only true option is to find a way around it, I cannot change that.

So what am I going to fight?

Am I going to fight myself for continuing the lose/gain cycle? Or do I fight against the elements of life? DO I fight the urge to go back to bed before an early morning workout or fight the disapointment that I did skip the workout? Either way I am fighting.


Meredith said...

I want to start eating in a more intuitive way. I need to read that book. Have you? Good luck with the 5 lb weight loss. I'm trying to lose the 2-4 lbs of holiday weight.

Food Coma said...

No I have't read the book. I am just trying to take the emphasis off eating. When I am on weight watchers I am constantly focused on how many points I have and what I can eat. It makes me crazy and makes me want to eat all the time instead of when I am actually hungry

Beth said...

I HEAR ya! I'm fightin' mad and so tired of thinking about eating and feeling either bad for eating or deprived for not eating what I really want.

marie said...

You're only fighting yourself.

Bri said...

I've been reading up on Intuitive Eating and have ordered the book. Google it and there is a website devoted to it. I also read an article online that someone wrote who had success with intuitive eating and she said the key is weighing herself every day. I mean, if you're not going to count points/calories, etc, you need to measure SOMETHING. I think I may try this. I'm so sick of counting points too. I am right there in your boat too!

Holly L. said...

I can totally relate to your post and can't even count the number of times I have been in this very situation myself. I also cycled through the doors of weight watchers more times than I like to remember and left after feeling frustrated. I think my biggest weight watcher complaint was that I always felt so deprived. I've since started counting calories and using daily (it's free, too!) and am told by fitday that the number of calories I can eat and reach my goals is a lot more manageable. The problem is that those changes are still SO freakin' slow! But I'm going to stick with it and get through. I know that you will find what works for you and I wish you the best of luck. I'm a new follower so I'll be back to see how you're doing!

The Shrinking Violet said...

It's certainly hard when you get in a slump, I certainly know how that feels.

Concentrate on the now. A five minute walk today and build up again. You are so worth looking after. Get on out there! Grab your coat...