Thursday, April 30, 2009

Guess who's face is getting fat?

Yeah it's mine. I guess I am ready to refocus because what I am doing now is simply not working. I haven't been counting my calories very well but I am still very reluctant to go back to points. AHH why can't I just stick with something for once in my life!

I have been fighting my weight for 15 years! I have never felt comfortable in my body since childhood. I know that I am worth it and that I want it but I just can't get it together. I have had a million motivating situations, my wedding, graduation, vacations to name a few.

To snack or not to snack, planned meals that I dont want to eat. I am too picky! Nothing looks good, or tastes good when I pack it. I spend all day long on campus and I have to carry it all with me hoping that it stays fresh and cold. Eating on campus is impossible everything is terrible!

I am feeling pretty stressed with finals coming up and graduation is in two weeks. I kind of want to cry. I feel like I cannot conquer this right now but I know that I have to. WHAT TO DO?

I can't seem to find the balance that I need.

1 comment:

Christina said...

I hate that weight/loss has to be such a struggle. I'm really sorry your having a hard time. You need to make yourself a priority and beleive that your are worth the extra struggle.

Keep counting your calories and don't get discouraged. Take it one day, or even one meal at a time. You have the rest of your life ahead of you!! :)