There are 3 months until your cruise. You have lost 20lbs, Good Job! Your goal was 40lbs, (sad face). You seem to be getting lax in your eating and don't exercise much. Your house is a mess and your workload is ridiculous. This is NOT an excuse to settle. Maybe you won't reach your 40lb goal but you would probably be happy with another 10lbs gone. You are a success because you haven't given up and you are at your lowest adult weight yet. You are worthy of reaching your goals and being healthy. Don't give up on yourself. Start off slow, little steps.
This weekend make a goal of organizing and cleaning your apartment. When that's done sneak up a few Christmas decorations to boost your moral. (tell husband to shut up, it makes you happy and it is almost Thanksgiving anyways) On Sunday you are trying on bridesmaid dresses, enjoy yourself and embrace the changes in your body. Set yourself up to win going in to the holidays.
You are worth it, do it for yourself. Keep up the good work.
I'm not going to lie, I feel much better and more in control after writing that letter to myself. Give it a try. Love you all!