I ate like a piglet today. I binged, I ate beyond the point of feeling sick, then I ate more. I should know better than to buy a bag of chips and a tub of dip. As a matter of fact I am sitting here right now thinking that I would like to go finish it off.
Instead, I tried on my tankini for the cruise. Not happy with that whole situation. At this point if I do not lose 10-15lbs by February I will need to purchase another suit. Craptastic.
The thing that makes me the most upset is that I am in control of this, I can change this. I really wish I could go back to weight watchers meetings but we just cannot afford it. I am feeling pretty out of control today and I don't like it. I tried cleaning the apt and got somethings done but I still have a long way to go. I wish someone could just slap me and snap me out of this funk.
I'm really tired. I babysat last night and didn't get home until midnight, up at 7 for my internship. This is not helping my situation thats for sure. I am going to pop in a movie and lay in bed. I suck today. I sucked pretty much all week. This is not the state of mind that I need to be in as I head into the holidays. Somethings got to shift.
Bed, Movie, Sleep.