Quick quick

food is good, water is great, and got my run in. I was down the pound that I was up on weigh in day, hopefully another will follow it this week.

diet coke is back

I lasted 2 days without diet coke..haa I made the husband pick some up for me today! I just wanted it so bad...I was actually snacking in the place of the diet coke. SO I think I will keep it around for a while longer. I do however plan to cut down to no more than 2 cans a day.

I am feeling a little better this evening about the gain this morning. I think the worst part was emailing Amy and telling her that I gained. Not a great start for the challenge but underneath it all I know I have been making good choices. I mean I have never stuck to an exercise program as long as I have this time with running. I am determined to be a runner. I know my body is changing for the better I can feel it. I feel stronger and leaner. My measurements have changed only slightly but I will take what I can get.

Today starts a new week and I am ready for it.

BUST

I ate all of my points this week, daily, activity, and activity. I gained 1 lb. I am a little bummed, actually I am more than a little bummed. I didn't want to eat all my points but I thought it would help me lose.

I know that I am building muscle from running but geez I have so much fat to lose that you would think I would lose some weight too. I am going to go back to not eating all my points. I wonder about trying to count calories for a week and not counting points. I dunno what I am going to do. I guess firstly I am going to go eat breakfast.

Just Say NO.

So I made the point of NOT picking up diet coke today. I went to several stores and even had the husband ask if I needed it. I said "no, I'm going off diet coke for a while". Ok lets examine that statement....sounds like I am going off a pill/drug doesn't it? Yeah I am going to try to level out ....

Pretty sad actually. So I picked up a 24 pack of water instead. I think it is a good move for a little while trying to get my water intake up and it is that much less chemicals for my body to deal with.

Diet coke will probably be more limited to a treat like when we go out to eat. Its a good thing..I think.

Yadda yadda

So it is a giant FAIL on the not weighing myself daily goal. I just can't seem to stop especially since I am still stuck at 180. Why can't I just drop into the 170's!?! This has been a rather funky week with it being my tom, eating all my points (ALL activity, weekly, and daily), and the ice cream incidents. I have stayed within my points but so far no loss.

I'm not sure how I feel about eating all my points, it feels a little forced. I mean sure I like the idea of being able to eat more but I also want to listen to my body. SO if I eat some ice cream in the evening even though I am not hungry it is like sending mixed messages! I dunno I am feeling a little perplexed today. I guess I will make the call on Sunday after my official weigh in.

As for today I am off from work and my plans are pretty open. I do want to get in another run today and possibly do some cleaning.

30 day Shred

I was browsing fitness dvds looking for something that might interest the husband and get him moving. He is the kind of guy who loses weight easily but doesn't want to work out. I really worry about his cardiovascular health so I have been trying to get him moving.

The 30 day Shred was on sale for $6.99 with $3 shipping so not bad at all. I figured it wasn't a girlie stepish dancing dvd so he might actually do it. I told him about it and he said he would do it. SO the plan is to do the dvd together every night for 30 days, hopefully we can stick to it.

I am just hoping that is doesn't affect my running abilities. I would hate to not be able to run becasue of my legs being sore. anyone tried the shred while doing the c25k? Did it slow you down?

Week 4

Holy COW! I really didn't want to run today. I mean I wanted to but my body was telling me it was too tired. Now usually if I would take a rest day but I took on yesterday and I needed to get the activity in. I think it had a lot to do with the new intervals. 3 minutes are ok but the 5 are tough. Really tough but doable. It definitely pushes me out of my comfort zone BIG time.

I kinda love and hate it. More love than hate though I think but of course I am writing this post run so I may be partial! PS I love posting my status on facebook as "on a run" or "running Crazy" It is another great way to be more motivated! It is amazing how much people will "like" a running status! haha.

Ok off to shower, got some cleaning done and my run out of the way ...now how to spend a lovely sunny afternoon!!?

RAIN!!

Rain is becoming a four letter word for me. I cannot take any more rain! This month it has rained almost EVERY day. It is ridiculous. It is bringing me down big time.

Eating was within points range but not good health wise. It seems all the advice that said make sure you eat all your points including my activity points got somehow misconstrued in my mind to mean Eat, Eat junk, skip on the good stuff, eat ice cream by the pint AS LONG AS you are within your points. I think I need to rearrange my thinking.

The problem is that I have a hard time getting in all those points without eating some junk. I am going to have to work through my eating plan, figure out how to make this all work out. I guess I always figured that as long as I was eating my daily points in healthy foods and eating often throughout the day that I would be ok. I can't seem to wrap my mind around the idea of needing to eat more when I am feeling pretty satisfied.

Ahhh why is it so hard for me to be a loser! : P

Wk4

So I ran Week 4 of c25k today in addition to my week 3 run at lunch. I feel pretty good about it. Week 4 is definitely a push on the last 5 minute run but I did it! I really like that it pushed me out of my comfort zone. Sure 3 minutes isn't easy for me but I can do it but 5 minutes...wow it was tough and I think I liked it. I cannot wait until I can run 30 minutes straight! I am really starting to feel like a runner!

Ok day

Today has been just ok, nothing great. My eating was fine a little on the high points side but mostly because I ate often. I had a ton of water and a couple diet cokes.

I ran on my lunch break and I have to say week 3 is kinda lame. In the beginning I expected to repeat some weeks and I did on 1 and 2. Week 3 always intimidated me I had never made it through week 2 however now I think I am going to skip it! It is basically a 90 second interval then a 3 minute with some walking inbetween then the interval is repeated. Considering that last week I ran 4 3 minute intervals week 3 seems to be back tracking. SO I deleted it off the ipod and I am pressing on to week 4 which consisted of 3 and 5 minute intervals.

So that means I have already met one of this weeks goals YAY!

On a more somber note I weighed my self this morning only to see a gain of 1.5ish pounds. That sucks hoepfully it will disapear when my period goes away. I am hiding my scale tonight.

Weekly Goals

Ok so here are my weekly goals.

1. Drink more water!! Less Diet Coke!
2. Keep running and be ready to move on to wk 4 of c25k
3. Hide the scale until weigh in day Sunday.


Also I want to shout out to all the people who follow my blog, YOU make me so proud! Thank you for investing your time in reading my blog and supporting me!


EDIT
Well I feel a lot better now that I am done with my run. I feel refreshed and ready to take on my week. I guess I didn't realize how much running helped me feel positive about my healthy choices.

BAAAAD IDEA!

So today was one big oops so far. Long story short I went over my daily points by 20 due to a pint of Ben and Jerrys. It sucks but I just wanted it so bad. After having a week with no loss and the only explanation being that I didn't eat enough I made sure that won't happen this week after today.

Well I am not going to let this snowball any further. Having my period is so not an excuse. I ate for comfort for sure and now I have to get a little uncomfortable and work it off. I will run today and try to get it together.

I like the idea that I am not losing because I am forming new muscle and because muscle holds water. I am going to put my scale away and not weigh myself until Sunday. I am going to except that the number on the scale isn't the whole truth. I look better and feel better. My clothes don't seem to fit all that differently but it will come with time.

I will meet my goal for my cruise as long as I keep on moving forward. At first my goal was to hit the 140s by losing 40ish pounds which I still want to move towards but the underlying point wasn't about a number. The true point is that I want to go on my vacation and feel comfortable in my body. I want to do all the activities that I would be too embarrassed to do now at this size. I want a real vacation!!

So onward and downward!

Ice Cream

So I ended up going on a road trip today, I ate junk on purpose haha. I decided to have a high point day to kick off my week in hopes of tricking my body into calorie burning mode haha. I didn't even want the junk it made me sluggish and sick. I wish I could have planned it better and ate a lot of healthy foods instead of a little junky junk. Oh well lesson learned, I don't do well with junk food.

I did end the day with some delisious ice cream, which I totally enjoyed and even settled my tummy! Oh well onward..

Frustrated

Ok so I weighed in today and guess what happened?? Oh yeah nothing. I am frustrated because I am doing everything right! I workout multiple times a week running, I journaled all my eating, I ate almost all my weekly points, and I didn't eat out. I haven't been hungry because I eat when I need to and I have been eating really balanced. I have been eating breakfast and drinking enough water.

As frustrating as this is I am not having that usual feeling of wanting to give up. I can't give up because there is nothing to give up, this is how I am living. I am really focused to becoming a healthy person. I don't feel like I am on a diet but rather that this is my diet. Diet is what you eat not a way to eat.

I have never been one to play the blame game, actually it is one of the reasons I don't go to meetings anymore. I can't handle all the people coming up with excuses while waiting to weigh in . "oh I drank a lot of water today" or "my mother in law is staying with us". Sure sometimes its probably true but the bottom line is that excuses don't help you have a smaller number on the scale. That being said I have no idea why I didn't lose this week but I didn't but I probably will next week.

I did wake up this morning with my TOM and that sucked too. I was woken up by cramps, seriously painful ones. What a horrible way to wake up on a sleep in Sunday morning. I am looking forward to lots of running this week to fight cramps.

I met lots of my goals for this week.
1.I didn't eat out at all this week. CHECK
2. I not only went up to 2 minute intervals but then moved up to 3minutes! DOUBLE CHECK
3. Commercial crunches- well a did it a few times but overall probably a half check

Not too shabby over all. I will post this weeks goals later today I really want to put some good thought into them. Also this post is getting wayyyyy too long! Sorry!

Running

It amazes me how quickly you can build up your running times once you get past the two minutes mark. Ever since I pushed myself through 2 minute intervals it seems like I can do anything! I am so ready to push through these up coming c25k weeks at the normal pace! I cannot wait until I am running 5k straight!

not scared

I didn't run yesterday and it didn't scare me. Let me explain, usually if I miss a day I end up missing 20 or never starting again. It is just how I am I am one of those all or nothing people I am either doing it everyday or not at all.

SO yesterday when I was just exhausted from being at work 2 hours earlier than usual I decided to take the night off. I was feeling ok about it though because I have come to the conclusion that this time I am changing my life. This is how I will continue to eat and workout. This is my new life. There is no giving up, but there are rest days.

Serious running progress

So I have been really pushing my running and today I did something that I have NEVER done before... are you ready. I RAN 7 minutes straight! 7 yeah thats right baby. On my last 2 minute interval I threw my tee shirt over the monitor and just ran. When I was just about die I pulled the tee off the monitor and saw I had run 6.5 minutes so I pushed through to 7 minutes.

This has got to be a good sign. I am moving up to all 3 minute intervals which is week 3 of c25k. Yay. Maybe I can really be a runner, maybe I already am.