Sunday, January 11, 2009

My worries and my plan

I'm worried. I have so much on my plate this semester. I am taking 6 classes and working 20 hours a week. I have to get a c or better in 4 of those classes in order to graduate in May. I am so concerned that I will mess this semester up. I find it so hard to study and concentrate on a regular basis and tend to end up cramming the night before the exams. To top it off one of my classes I am retaking because I got a D in it last semester and needed a c. 
Losing this weight is a priority right now, but so is school. I think that I will really need to focus on creating a schedule and sticking to it. I know that I need to plan my food in advance and prepare/pack my healthy foods. 
The bright side I have had these couple weeks off to get a little head start in my weight loss. I still have this coming week to plan and prepare. Also I have only one night class this semester, compared to the three I had last semester. 
I have a lot of things to look forward to this year and they will all be more fun if I feel comfortable in my skin. I am graduating, that means pictures and memories for the rest of my life. I am taking a trip to visit my friend in Florida in July and I want to feel comfortable in shorts and tank tops.
 I know that I won't drop 50lbs in 5 months, I know my body and it works slow and steady but I can surely knock off 20-30lbs by then. Right now I am dreaming of the 170's but then the 160's and possibly the 150's by the time I go to Florida. How freaking amazing would that be? I think that I am taking the right steps, the BLBE will take me through the next 16weeks/20lbs and I am ready. 
I am making myself a priority, I have in the past had money troubles that made it hard to stay at weight watchers but now it is a priority. I have a job through August with my grant so I know that ww is covered at least until then. I am scheduling in my workouts and finding time for myself. I am holding myself accountable for my health.
 I want to be healthy and happy, who could ask for more? I am a future teacher and I want to be a healthy role model for my students. I do not want to fear being judged by my looks but rather by the person that I am inside. I am tired of being intimidated by people thinner than me. 

* I am in control of my health, I have no one to thank or blame for the way I am. I know that I can do it. I know that anyone can do it. You are worth it. You are worth that walk to clear your mind, you are worth the time it takes to plan out your healthy meals, you are worth it to yourself, your kids, your spouse,  and even your dog! Take that walk, that time, and make yourself a better you. 


H-woman said...

Wow, you've got a busy schedule! When I'm super busy, I really need to have a plan--food in the fridge, ready to go or just pop in the microwave. I also need to make sure I've scheduled time for myself: yoga, exercise and sleep.

I think you're on the right track--you've recognized what might be problems and have some solutions for dealing with them.

Go A-team!!

H =)

Phyaflyjones said...

Taking accountablility is HUGE. This is a lesson that I am learning. Believe me, it is a slow moving bus. Other's actions have set things in motion, but you can always change the direction.

Good luck.