Thank you all for the amazingly lovely comments. Some days it really shocks me to think that I have such an amazing group of people who are understanding and just here to support me because they have been where I am. Thank you.
I truly believe that you all are going to be the reason that I really do this this time around. Even though I know that I CAN do this there are just some days that threaten to tear me down and today was definitely one of those days.
I will be honest I absolutely went a bit over my points today, I let go and ate until I was satisfied/satiated. It included a couple ice cream sandwiches and tacos. It did help me feel better because I was free for that 5 hour period and I could have done much worse. I could have hit every fast food joint on the road but I didn't. Instead I choose to eat what I wanted without feeling frenzied/crazy like a typical binge. I was thinking about what I was eating, knowing what I wanted and choosing to eat it. I enjoyed what I had instead of just cramming everything in sight into my mouth. I am not making excuses by any means but it does seem like a minor improvement.
I am proud that I have been able to blog about my mistakes because before I would have just dropped off and not blogged. Progress.
I am going to head to bed with some healthy motivating reading. I am going to wake up in the morning refreshed and ready for the weekend. I may not see a loss when I weigh in Sunday but tomorrow is a new day and I might as well get started on my loss for next week.
I see much water in my future.