Friday, January 30, 2009

You are amazing.

Thank you all for the amazingly lovely comments. Some days it really shocks me to think that I have such an amazing group of people who are understanding and just here to support me because they have been where I am. Thank you.

I truly believe that you all are going to be the reason that I really do this this time around. Even though I know that I CAN do this there are just some days that threaten to tear me down and today was definitely one of those days.

I will be honest I absolutely went a bit over my points today, I let go and ate until I was satisfied/satiated. It included a couple ice cream sandwiches and tacos. It did help me feel better because I was free for that 5 hour period and I could have done much worse. I could have hit every fast food joint on the road but I didn't. Instead I choose to eat what I wanted without feeling frenzied/crazy like a typical binge. I was thinking about what I was eating, knowing what I wanted and choosing to eat it. I enjoyed what I had instead of just cramming everything in sight into my mouth. I am not making excuses by any means but it does seem like a minor improvement.

I am proud that I have been able to blog about my mistakes because before I would have just dropped off and not blogged. Progress.

I am going to head to bed with some healthy motivating reading. I am going to wake up in the morning refreshed and ready for the weekend. I may not see a loss when I weigh in Sunday but tomorrow is a new day and I might as well get started on my loss for next week.

I see much water in my future.



Andrea said...

Well it's a good thing that you are aware of what you are eating, that's a start. I've had days where I really went over my POINTS values, but the thing is that you just don't give up.
You're doing a good job.

carla said...

and in addition, when you blog about your mistakes you NORMALIZE for all of us who are making the same mistakes and feel like the only ones.

think of it as a gift.


Kud said...

This is what blogging's all about. By accounting for your mistakes you make them natural and you recognize that while they happened, they don't derail your efforts. When you look back on this journey, you'll see that even though you made mistakes, it all boiled down to how long it took you to jump bacck into the game, when you were down.